As you guys know, I recently launched It's Business Time with the uhmazing Tiffany Han and Michelle Ward.
It has me thinking and reminiscing A LOT about when I first started artsocial and how terrifying and exciting the whole experience was. Yesterday I started looking through an old journal and found an entry from September of 2011. I had started a day job I already knew I hated and artsocial was just an idea - we didn't even have a website yet! I wanted to share it with you guys:
This is month 2 at [my day job] and we're on the brink of launching ARTSOCIAL.* A lot is happening. So many wonderful things I never thought possible. I just moved in with Kevin and couldn't be happier about it. My stress is getting in the way though. I know I know better. The stress isn't what's real, it shouldn't be my focus.
Magnificent things are happening. I don't want my work stress to overshadow our new home or the excitement of ARTSOCIAL. That stupid [day job] is not that important. Everything I've learned tells me it's never worth it to worry. It's a waste of time, but here I am. I know I am not that job. I'm grateful to be there but it is not who I am or what I'm supposed to be.
I must trust my heart and gut that tells me there are greater things - I don't need to worry myself over that job. I will be fine - better than fine. I am in control of my career. I must remember what's important to me. I am not my job. My real work is not a job.
I am letting good things into my life, incredible things, fun things, bursting-with-joy things. That's what IT IS. Find your fun in each activity, that's the only thing that matters in the end. Following my truth from here on.
Man, high five, 25 year-old me. Isn't it wild to go back through old journals and see how everything turned out? I am SO grateful I found the courage to leave that job and trust that there were indeed greater things, just waiting to meet me on the other side.
* I doodled little hearts around artsocial, ha!